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Jerry's Story- Introduction

Most of what characterizes my life today—work, family, and faith—looks little like what I thought life would be when I graduated from college in 1980. Because of my sexual orientation, nothing is as I expected. I still identify as Seventh-day Adventist, but I do not have the same relationship with my church as I once had. I am open about my orientation to most people, and I have been in a same-sex relationship for nearly thirty-five years. However, don’t let that last fact lead you to make any assumptions about my theology. That I am a professing Christian is applauded by some and questioned by others. LGBT+ acquaintances and some heterosexual friends often ask me why I continue to associate with a faith community that has a checkered relationship with its LGBT+ members. Others wonder how I can consider myself a Christian while in a same-sex relationship. In addition to the “why-do-I-continue” and the “how-can-I-consider” questions, people have asked me a multitude of other questions over the years. Naturally, people want to know when and how I first became aware of my orientation. Others are interested in my spiritual experience and how my faith and my orientation intersect and perhaps collide. Many questions revolve around my reparative therapy journey and the impact that experience had on me, including my relationship to God, the church and others. I am often asked about the pivotal moment I decided to stop trying to change my orientation and the events that led up to that. Related to that decision is the question of short and long- term consequences. I’ve been asked about where I see God in the whole journey—before going for counseling, during counseling, and since accepting my orientation. And, finally, others want to know about my relationship with my partner, how that has evolved over the years, and the impact he has had on my life. There are so many questions, and the best way to answer them is with a story. While life is usually lived on a timeline moving from A to B to C, there are themes that overlap and benchmark events that changed the course of my life. The themes are more significant during my early years, but they do spill over into every period of my life. They loosely follow these lines: family dynamics, education, my religious world, and awareness of my orientation. My journey into the world of reparative therapy as I tried to “fix” myself and become heterosexual is a theme all on its own. As I move through my story, my comments explain why I felt the way I did and why I made certain choices. In the end, I want the reader to know at least one person who is attracted to the same sex and what that experience is like. By sharing some very personal and private moments, the reader will come as close as possible to walking in my shoes.

Jerry McCay

Journey- Chapter One

The First Fifteen Years. Some Quirky Bits

Jerry McKay

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Journey- Chapter Two

Hints of Orientation

Jerry McKay

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